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Part 3 What a difference between what I was in Genova And what I had been before I can remember I was, like all youngsters in the small town, a member of a traditional association We wore traditional clothe, which looked like uniforms And marched on holy days with marching music All this looked like a kind of amateur army with wooden rifles and wooden horses and we took ourselves very seriously we all dreamt about one day defending our country and become heroes x the first change came when I was 17 years old there was a small party with my classmates we were all very drunk and one had the idea to cut my hair that way, I got a haircut like a punk the next day when I went home to the small town the people there didn’t want to talk to me anymore I asked myself “Had I changed? Am I someone different?” I couldn’t understand them today, I know: “in these societies it’s forbidden to ...

Part 2 Where did my actual state of mind come from? Well! Now to think back! As a child, not having seen and experienced anything else before Probably, I always felt that something wasn’t working well around me. And of course, I couldn’t define my thoughts People seemed a bit to superficial, not deep enough But the feeling of wanting change got stronger and stronger in me X When I was 16, I went on a bigger excursion for the first time alone I went to another very small town 300 km far away by bike A kind of Woodstock-festival took place there Very many different kind of people, hippies, punks, normal youngsters like me It was a completely new world to me and very strange These were people, I had seen only on TV so far And nearly everybody there could play a music instrument I must admit I envied them And it was not before 20 years later when I learned my first music instrument my...

Part 1 I was born in the countryside in 1967 my mother, a nurse, was very young when I was born, she was only 17 she came from a rather poor family and Germany wasn't rich at that time of course, she was very beautiful. Imagine! the time of the Beatles and mini-skirts she was looking for a man to help her to break out once, I saw a photo of my father very handsome, tall with the best car at that time x the first year of my life, I spent at my grandmother's a real traditional woman she used to say: "a fatty boy is a good boy" and so she fed me as a 1 year-old baby, I was much overweight Never ever anybody talked to me about why I wasn't with my mother or father xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx when I was 1 and a half years old, my half-sister was born my stepfather was always very correct   and never made any difference between me and my half-sister only at the ...

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